There are moments... (rant)

There are moments when I'd feel adventurous; the world is my playground. I'd look at something and just say 'yes'. I remember when I wasn't like this before. I was so conservative. Although I'm not sure when I started being so outgoing.


I feel really childish sometimes when I want to be adventurous; seeing a possible moment and seizing it in my next heartbeat, thinking nothing but of the moment. I wonder if that's a weakness? Being so easily side-tracked sometimes gets me in trouble. The most recent incident had one of my friends get angry at me haha; I got so busy that I seemed unreachable.

There are moments when I want to be alone, and I explore and my imagination becomes my company. I'd think, and think, and think some more. I prefer being alone when I have no negativity in my life. Being alone when being consumed with hate and pain makes me so cynical, but then I swallow it down and return back to earth. Sometimes I wonder if that cynical side of me will ever explode and take over. I may be killing bitches. There have been moments when I've opened that high-pressured bottle and I've taken it out on people I love. #thingsIamnotproudof

But when life's good, my imagination is like an epic battle anime. Half the time I swear my mind should be a TV show. Same with my dreams; I have the most screwed up dreams. One time I had this dream, I was getting kinky with two girls (trust me, this is not what you're thinking). We're kissing and our tongues are 'going places', things getting pretty hot and steamy. It was pretty much a wet dream up until the point where the condom had to be opened from its wrapper. None of us could get it open, none of the three. So we started playing Scrabble. Yeah I know.

There are moments when I'm not alone, and it's the best thing ever. Recently I hanged with two of my best mates from university, and I +1ed one of my friends thinking it may be awkward since I haven't seen these two in awhile. But it was so fun, and I realised just how much I missed them. Other times I'd be alone late at night on a train ride home consumed with shit and drunk off my face, and my best friend would take the time to stay on the line and talk; and I'd pay him the same respects.

One time me and my mate went to a park, and just sat under a tree and relaxed. No words. No conversation. I had my guitar and he just slept. Just having company can sooth temporary problems.

And finally, there are moments when I feel so displaced from everyone and everything around me. Not that I don't fit in, I know I do. I think it's more like just me being in my own world; or rather the world will turn without me and I can't keep up, or perhaps it's just me travelling in another direction. I usually feel like this during significant change. Right now in my life there are quite a few changes happening; new things emerging, current things developing, and there are things that I want to change, but won't.

However, I'm a firm believer of destiny. Everything happens for a reason. I'm sure I'll appreciate the end of all these things. And I'm sure there is happiness at the end of all this.

I know there is.


Just have to be patient.

COVER: Damned If I Do Ya - All Time Low

So me and my friend, Mr Juco, decided to cover a song and add to our song list.
Try... to cover.

This is a live version, one-take cover. Excuse the fails.

Damned If I Do Ya by All Time Low!!

NEW SONG: Timeless (draft)

A catchy piece I wrote with Mr. Juco



Timeless

I am not the type that you would fall for
I am not the guy of your dreams
But still we hung out and maybe I fell a little
Because of those nights or so it seemed

CHORUS
Cherish those timeless moments
The night club kiss and late night phone calls
Because I'm ready to break and fall in time
You see, my life is temporary
And when the time comes you won't be needing me
But smile and remember the times...
and make it timeless!

Ever since we met, I knew it wouldn't happen
I knew that who you saw wasn't me
Don't be sad for me, I'm glad you found you're meant to be
Just give me time, and I will come around
You'll see..

CHORUS
Cherish those timeless moments
The night club kiss and late night phone calls
Because I'm ready to break and fall in time
You see, my life is temporary
And when the time comes you won't be needing me
But smile and remember the times...
and make it timeless!

BRIDGE

Cherish your timeless moments
Because that's all you will have
When I'm gone, and its just you two at the scene
You know I'd take the fall, so all you guys would have it all
Just forget me, forget me...

Cherish those timeless moments
The night club kiss and late night phone calls
Because I'm ready to break and fall in time
You see, my life is temporary
And when the time comes you won't be needing me
But smile and remember the times...
and make it timeless!

(adlibs)

Self-portrait: JROCK

So I woke this morning after a night of Halloween clubbing, with my make-up half gone and my hair all retarded, and I thought...

'damn I look like a wreck. A damn BEAUTIFUL WRECK!'

And so I took a picture.

I went as a goth btw. Turned out more jrock than goth, but hey that's even better!

Masks: draft

So I've been hanging this around for a month or so. I would've uploaded this sooner but I just hate how it sounds right now (mainly because it's my own vocals lool).

I don't know what to call it, but for now I'm naming it Masks.

(p.s. I know my screams suck, shut up)

Lyrics:

Sweet tastes are bitter tasting with every thought of you
I'd whisper of love embracing, but that would never do
Depart, rid me of this broken heart adieu.
But there's so much that I can't leave here
So much, there's too much, that I couldn't bear if they were to

Break! Even if I had to make me feel like there was nothing left but traces of the past.
I could've sworn there was nothing of you left in me
I'd never tell cause I don't want your sympathy
I just wish you'd look the other way
And forget what you'd see

And slowly I can feel it crawling
The sun just passes through
There's nothing that I can do
But covers, masks and disguised faces

Tepid screams and sandy sleeping, nights of tearing blue
Catch your hand with friendly smiling while halving these beats in two
See the me that's laughing now, feel the warmth that's inside me now
I'm not worth a single thump of your beating heart


And slowly I can feel it crawling
The sun just passes through
There's nothing that I can do
But covers, masks and disguised faces
Hope is gone, the hearts have been shifted 
But there never was a clue

Foolish through and through
I'll turn astray and hope that you will find
The heart that I hold for you

Self-portrait: Do as dodo

My day didn't go as planned, so I decided to take advantage of the place I found myself at, and tried out this 'self-portrait' thing. 

I guess you could say he was over 'bird'ened, with me following him and all.

EB Games Expo - The Show and other cool stuff.

So this was the opening show before the main showground opened. The highlight for me was this live twitter feed.

Look look! You can see my tweet! 'Loving this tetris dubstep'. I then followed it up with this.

See it? It says 'Saw my tweet on the live twitter feed. Acheivement Unlocked!'. Haha so worth it. Wonder if I was the cause of any lols in that moment.

Oh my goodness, this game is godlike. I recommend to all to try this out. Same makers of Mortal Kombat, Injustice is a fighting game incorporated with heroes and villains from the DC universe, so like Batman, Joker, Superman and stuff. It looks super cool, characters look damn awesome, and the moves are quite attractive. And their ultimate moves... oh goodness, best eye candy.

Our turn was actually over and we hadn't seen Batman's ultimate yet, but he let us stay abit and watch another set of players execute it... it's damn worth it.

Signed by Ed Boon himself.

These grafitti works were placed outside the main area. I'm assuming these were made during the live art thing during the Friday session.

Finishing off the day joining our powers. 

It was quite a fun day, with my mates Vince and Matthew. Overall the expo wasn't offering that much; probably wasn't worth the $40, but it was still fun for what we did. I mean I played the new Hitman, Halo, COD, and all these other things before their release date. 

I recommend attending next year, if you're waiting on an extensive list of games to come out.

Till next time!

EB Games Expo - Toys and Gadgets!

There were so many nifty toys and things at the expo. Most of their products were showcased very impressively. If they weren't so expensive, I would've came home and opened a branch of Toys R Us. Seriously.

Tank from Left 4 Dead. This particular stall said all the merchandise displayed there would be sold at the store... this wasn't. It was saddening.

All made of MegaBlocks, which to me is just some cheap Lego. But still... LEGO! That's insane!

This to is made from the MegaBlocks. This was taller than me, which if you know me isn't saying very much, but for what it's worth... yeah it's damn big.

I think this is Thor's Hammer? Or someone important's hammer. Definitely a hammer of some sort.

Halo stuff. And yes, these are all still MegaBlocks.

This ain't a cosplay. I think it was a wax statue. So damn real. And if Batman was that tall in real life, then DAYUM! You can tell how tall he is from the angle this was shot.

Portal gun! Non-functional unfortunately.

Daenerys Targaryen from Game of Thrones. Less hot in figure form.

Minecraft swords. Made of foam, unforunately.

This epic gun, from a game I can't put my finger on. Someone let me know.

Figures!

Companion Cube!!! <3

Epic Ezio.

Marshmellow from Ghostbusters. So cute! Less daunting when smaller it seems.

This rig looks insane! Dem tuuubes. The game it was running looked crisp and smooth too. I want tubes in my tower now.

These guys were demonstrating insane overclocking and cooling the hardware with liquid nitrogen, which is what is pouring out of the fan.

This thing scared the shit out of me. Innocently waiting in line and this thing starts moving! Advertising the game ZombiU.

 

There were some other insane stuff including a 1:1 scale of Ezio like the Batman one. I really wish I didn't come home empty handed, but there was really nothing I was interested in, not too mention expensive.

Next post will be other good photos, in no specific category (cause I couldn't think of any). Not as much as this. Sorry there's so much, but you just have to see these things. 

Sorry if your scrolly fingers got sore.